On Tuesday’s episode of Amy Poehler’s Good Hang podcast, the actress opened up about how she’s been coping with the grief of the death of her husband, Jeff Baena, earlier this year. Baena died by suicide on Jan. 3. He was 47 years old.

"Sometimes I just want to dive into it and just like be in it," she said. "Then sometimes I just look at it, and sometimes I try to get away from it. But, it's always there."

"There was a lot of crying," Plaza recalled. "You cried."